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Tuesday, April 18, 2006
Aloha Lj-anites!!! I don't fell like re-posting a blog, that's already been blogged--so you should all go check out my myspace...it's funkyfresh-i swear!! It might just even rub off on you--Like Scabies!!! Actually I don't even know if scabies can "rub-off"??? I'll check into that.. I'm e-mailing my bio-prof right now... Don't be dank!!!Cya lovebucketeers!!!
Current mood: Beat boxin'2 da rhythym o face Current music: Fall of Troy
Thursday, January 5, 2006
Thursday, January 5th, 2006
@ 3:25pm - humpday
Heloooooooooooooo 06'! My biggest failures of 05'? How bout' everything (except my grades) that happened over my 1st semster? Hows' that for starters? Well, anyway, it's time to stop dwelling. turn over a new leaf, and purge all the bad things from my life! I've gotten sooo much done today, I make coffee nervous! How bout a list? THINGS THAT R TACKY: studded belts, people who talk in internet slang when in off-line convos, people who call people "sweetie" when not in an intimate relationship w/ them, people who dedicate a whole thing on their LJ to list "things that are tacky:),jews:), ummm. I'll update more later... have a good one" yall.
ps. did you know that chuck norriss' tears cure cancer?... Too bad he never cries... Oh wait! I rmebered one more thing that is off-the-charts tacky, almost ALL myspace photos--especially uber posed ones that try to look sexy, whether it be laying down, or an uber side-eye shot, or aginst walls...well, i know all pictures almost have to be posed in some way, but you know what i mean---if you say you don't yer lying--lie to yer freinds, not to me:)! I also know at some point, one has to just let all that shit go, and sometimes nort care anymore, but you know what? sometimes it's fun to be a cynical (maybe that's spelled wrong, lets get over it) bastard, and be immature, and not pretend to be a "child of god" and love eryone and everything--its' just not how it werks... this stuff doesn't piss me off, it just makes me laugh... heartily!!!!:)okay--enuff of that! bye for now!:)
Current mood: oblong! Current music: #9 on you fail me
Wednesday, December 7, 2005
Wednesday, December 7th, 2005
@ 4:45am
eyy. it's 4:45 in the mfing am, and i cannot sleep...
1. this is the sickest i've felt in a long time... sore throat, perverse tickle in the back of my throat, causing me to cough, crunkly migraine, i'm hot and cold at the same time, and my eyes hurt, and i wanna blow chunks hardcore. Thanx fur listening to my bitchfest.
2. as always, i am thinking about peter. I'm sorry, i know you don't like it when i write these lj's like this, but i can't help it. I've been trying to back off lately, and not read yer myspace, or call you as much, or write in my lj about you, but i think of you all the time. I also don't want you to think that this attempt to give you space means that i do not care, cuz that is FARRRR from the truth... more than anything, i just wanna be held by you right now...
i never know what you wanna talk about on the phone, so i try a lot of things... believe me, i'm trying. i get frustrated cuz i miss you... and i can only be my deep true self around you... and sometimes i try to end the phone convo soon, cuz i wanna end it while it's still good, or before i screw something up, and lately i feel like i'm pushing you away, and i don't wanna do that. i love you.
i love you peter. i wanna laugh with you again, i want us to confide in eachother again, i wanna cuddle with you again... i want you to trust me again. that's a lot of i wants... my xmas list looks something like this this year:
1.***peter to be happy 2. peter 3. peter 4. peter 5.peter 6.peter 7.Peter 8.PETER 9. peter 10.PetER 11. pete 12. peter 13. Peter 14. and ipod 15. Peter 16. peter 17. peter 18. peter 19. peter 20. peter 21. peter 22. PeteR 23.peterrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr 24. peter 25. peter 26. peter 27. peter 28. pETER 29. PETER 30 peter! 31. peter 32. peter 33. peter 34. peter 35. peter 36. peter 37. peter 38. peter 39. peter 40. peter 41. peter
42. peter 43. peter 44. peter 45. peter 46. peter 47. PETER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 48. PETER 49. PETER 50. peeet-R 51. PETE
52. pe-terrrrrr 53. ptr 54. p tur 55. peetur 56. peetir 57. pee-tir 58. peeeeetttt 59. peter 60. PETE! 61. peter ( complete w/ batteries and bubble wrap:) 62. peet 63. pterrrrrr 64. pete 65. peter 66. sir Peter 67. Peter lyle noteboom 68. Pete aleet 69. peter noteboom 70. peet errrr 71. i can't get my pics to save from google, so think of an actual picture of "peat" and then add er 71. peet 72. Peter Lyle Noteboom...
Current mood: pete Current music: meh
Thursday, December 1, 2005
Thursday, December 1st, 2005
@ 8:19pm
I was just reading Peet's lj entries from when we first started dating... they are so cute, (*tears ensue)... i want it to be like that again... i wish it was ten o'clock, so i could crack muh fone and call you... and then maybe hold you... and laff at fat kids in balls with you...
Current mood: longing Current music: ..."it's so cold, in this, house"... (whoever sings that...?
Thursday, December 1st, 2005
@ 1:59am
... I just found some old ramen, like literally found it, and ate it raw. It almost tasted like soap, but did i eat it all? yes.
-today I locked myself in the government room, and danced to music for hours by myself...
-I finally got my portable cd player back from Katie.S today! Do you realize that I'm so attached to my music, that I haven't really exercised at all lately, cuz I haven't had my cd player?!?!?
-Today, I also learned the basic principles of feminism:-"Don't slap a ho'."
-I polished off an entire banana cream-something pie today at debot
-I went to an improv try-out thing for a "skit-show", and am also working on a pitch for my own, random fun-antics kinda spiely thing
-I made a streesball today out of a balloon, no joke
-I went outside jacketless
-I found out my new friend Amy, someone who I really connect with, is transferring next semester--suck
-I like to keep busy, and talk about things that lack substance, (like right now) so I don't get depressed...
Current mood: mood? Current music: joy division
Monday, November 28, 2005
Monday, November 28th, 2005
@ 12:17am
... i just got this monster craving for chocolate, and i ate all the lil' chocolates in my advent calendar... i started w/ the 16th day though... and, obviously, i cannot sleep... (elipses rock)
after all the hardships i've put people through, and that i've brought on myself lately, it's given me a lot to reflect on... and i pre-apologize to all those fed up w/ drama, for this is another entry completely devoted to it.
-No matter what, Peter is, and always will be the voice in my head--- and what a beautiful voice it is... in any sense you care to apply this to...
- I don't know why I always feel immediately threatened by those, particularly girls, who are most like me...
-I don't know where some of my insecurities come from
-I don't know why I feel the need put so much emphasis on my physical appearance sometimes
-I definitely have never wanted a boy, or anyone for that matter, in my entire life, to like me so much, as I do now (for those who may have fallen off the wagon some number of sentences ago, this once again pertains to Pete)
-I've never woken up sooo many times in the night, often times in a cold sweat (which I have never experienced until this year)wondering if/hoping I didn't fuck up my life forever
-I realize that I've been very selfish in many aspects of my life, and I have, and I still am changing
-I've...
jesus... howe many times have i referred to myself in this entry? it is indeed time to stop...
-bottom line is, nothing good came from me doing what I did, except the fact that my parents have been really nice to me lately, and some great songs/depressing poetry has come of this... and that's not even good/worth it...
idk... i'll stop before the rambling syndrome sets in...-just one last thing for peter:
(this is to make you feel better, or try to, about certain things)-- besides the obvious motive of me wanting to get you back, another reason i don't see jarad at all anymore, is the fact that he is annoying. pretty much every time he talks, i think of something you or I would say that would make fun of what he said, or the way he said it. no lie. there are no more lies... the bottom, bottom line is, you ARE the voice in my head, and i love you.
Current mood: monday? Current music: music from rent
Friday, November 25, 2005
Friday, November 25th, 2005
@ 10:15am
... in yesterday's paper, there's a lovely tribute article to john lennon... it made me want to listen to "imagine"...i suggest you all stop what yer doin now, and read it... yes, that means stop making a sandwich, whatever:).other interesting headlines pertain to huey lewis' broadway debut, the upcoming of a mini series' about the late pope's life, and how France is looking into rebuilding after recent riots... my zipper just broke. ugh.
other than that, i went to a show last night w/ peter. it was at the labor temple, and it was pretty thumbs up. Amidst the sea of usual show-goer faces, i don't remember a time when i felt so horribly average... idk, i just wanted to see pete... i really have no desire to meet new people, or make small talk w/ others... the small talk i did make, i just did cause' i felt like i should... i don't remeber a time when i had to force myself this much to be social... perhaps that makes me phony... idk, i was nice once...
driving home from the show, i was crying so hard i could barely see my spedometer, and it turns out i was going 20 mph, most of the way, this is kinda humerous, but then i thought...i don't really feel funny, or interesting, or even remotely good looking in public anymore... i'm just there. i know i used to complain about how all people do is complain or vent on here, but i really don't have a lot of people to talk to, and/or i don't want to make them sad, so here it goes.
idk, it's hard to know how to act when yer whole immediate world suddenly looks at you in a different light, and no longer sees you as everything you came to be, or once stood for... idk, i just do it, and try to go w/ the flow. a lot of the social events kill me, but i'll do wahtever i have to to see you peter... this isn't meant to be a guilt trip, it's the truth. i don't know what to do, ev. time i see peter, i just want to hold him and love him, and that's what makes a lot of social events so hard... maybe i need to stop trying...? idk if that would work either, i'm so lost...
it makes me scared to say this next part, because more than anything, i don't want it to be true...
maybe i'm not the one for peter... (please god, no).
I've never in my life tried so hard to get a guy before... and i don't know where to go from here. I know for him to forgive me, he has to realize that i've changed, and am still changing, for the better. But ultimately, we'd have to view things as in the past... i know that's no easy feat...
idk, but i know how you feel now peter. i won't be so self righteous to say that i know exactly how you feel, but i have an idea. I wake up everyday, and mull over everything in my mind, over and over, and my heart literally feels like it sank into my stomach, and the place where my heart should be, there's a big hole, just... burning...
Ive pretty much said everything i could say, i nkow i can still do nice things for him though, and i will. other than that, i just feel helpless... i know it's beeen said, over and over and over again... i just have to wait.... i have to wait for the past to be very in the past, and for the good things that i do to outweigh all the bad things... and i'll wait however long, and do wjatever it takes... you've heard this a million and 42 times, and i apologize.
i know i probably coulda wrote this down in a notebook... so i guess i can't deny it when i say that in the back of my mind, i want peter to read this...
idk, i wanna talk about political issues w/ you, and books that we're reading, and have listening sessions w/ you, and do everything w/ you... not just the physical stuff... either way, i nkow me giving you books to read, and writing you songs isn't gonna win you back or anything, i just still wanna share our commonalities,a dn life together, which is a lot of things... idk
i'm rambling now. you get the point. my love for you is NEVER ENDING...........................
Wednesday, November 23, 2005
Wednesday, November 23rd, 2005
@ 6:13pm
check it, katie's online. NM goin' on here, thanksgivings here, and i'm hoping to go up a pant size... i wish good gobblin' to all. I stayed up ll night last night composing my "ode to peter" on the guitar, and i showed it to him today, and i wish i coulda made it better. woulda coulda shoulda. Ah, here's some news all might find disturbingly entertaining, some republican in the "house" proposed that the gov' test genetically engineered foods, and chemicals on orphans, and the mentally challenged. i shit you not. ..anywho, the library's closin' ... how cool am i? alright, bbye, and as always, peter, yer always on my mind....
love
Current mood: eh Current music: joy division
Tuesday, November 15, 2005
Tuesday, November 15th, 2005
@ 11:40am
indeed. a long awaited j entry. for who? whatever. everything up until the last month in my life seemed pretty stable/permanent, and then i fucked up huge. not just a little, "give me some white-out" kinda mistake, more like, "i accidently drove a combine through yer prize petunias, and yer grandpa was sleeping in them kinda mistake,"-- i guess that's some pretty random ass shit right there. I don't know, I know I hurt/made angry a lot of people, you know who u are, and i'm sorry. i know u've all heard at least... hmm. Well, for what it's worth, (who is also no longer a band) I'm especially sorry to Peter, and love you more than i ever knew possible. I won't make college my excuse, in fact, i'm pretty sure excuses are for the spineless. i'm trying to dig up old dirt, i'm just trying to salvage what's left of the useable dirt, and possibly fertilize yer lawn w/ it. that was weird, i'm not gonna lie. In all seriousness, i miss everyone, and i wish everything could just be the way it was... idk. i'm not begging --- that would be a close relative to being pathetic. i just know i'm done being immature, and I'm dropping my insecurities off of the highest bridge that i can find (this is a good thing). i don't want anyone to feel sorry for me, that's redunculous. I just want everyone to know that the wanker-katie has left the building. in fact, she's been put in a box, and mailed to obudabey w/ nermal. enuff of that. Hope to see you all again soon. you guys are my real friends, and Pete's the by far the best, and by far the most real guy out there, and i'm sorry that it seemed that i forgot that for a short period of time...
-things aren't the same w/o yous'. i'm not the same w/o yous'--- don't feel guilty, don't even forgive me if you don't want, just know
p.s. i really need to get around to changing my icon and shit--- they're... hmm. nicht so gut
Current music: smashing pumpkins- disarm
Monday, September 5, 2005
Monday, September 5th, 2005
@ 4:13pm - HOO-AHH!!!
OMG! I'm officially in college now--LIVIN' THERE! Yay! it's soooo much fun, and there's soooo much goin' on.. I hope all ya'lls are havin' fun, like Sarah, Jessi, Bert, the werks... Aww, i do really miss my peter though... but we'll make it werk. I don't wanna stay on long, cuz i wanna read some of my books, and junk.. i'll add more laterz.. bbye! luv yas!!!
Current mood: WOOOOOOOOOTT! Current music: random antics(local band playing outside)*smile
Monday, August 8, 2005
Monday, August 8th, 2005
@ 10:01am - whateva
hey. ima el coolo, so im gonna update this lj like im all ditzay und sheiss. like i tried to cash in my savings bonds today, and one bank couldn't figure it out or something, so i couldn't do it. Work study at point still hasn't gotten back to me yet. No potential venue places have got back to yet either about the show on the 19th. I tried to return some shit to target today too, and i couldn't find the receipt. I also tried to feed the turtle today, but jeff was in the driveway, and i got nervous, so i didn't--sorry, i'll go back laterz. ihafta werk today. balr. and i still hafta think upo something el coolo for pete and i'ss'sssssss one year anni!!!! hot damn, yall. idk what else... oh yeah, i still gotta book my gramma a piano show, i promised.damnit. lets get goin katie! bye love yas all. get excited for skool! be kool. bert just moved---check out ehr house!!!!yay!!(ask 1st!!)yay bye loves'.
Current mood: whateva Current music: tears in heaven
Monday, July 18, 2005
Hey yall... To everyone I haven't hung out woth lately, (sorry by the way) and everyone and anyone else, you are cordially invited to the Kristina Burrows' Benefit Show that me and some of my Buds' have put together!!! It's this Friday July 22nd, at Rothschild Village Hall, at 6:30 p.m., located on Business 51, right across from Weyerhauser. In case you haven't heard, our dear and unfortunate friend Kristina Burrows was riding her bike about a month ago, and some lost kids from outta town accidentally hit her with their car. Sadly, Kristina slipped into a coma, and there wasn't much hope... However, Kristina miraculously, and recently came out of her coma, and an almost entire recovery is expected! The sad thing is, her family does not have health insurance, and their hospital bill is racking up to 100,000's of dollars!!! Sooooooo, we're putting on this show, where all the profits will go to her family... So please come, it's for a GREAT cause, and don't forget to tell everyone you know!!! Thank you soooooo much. U rawk.
P.S.- Erin Knippel, please come! we can hang and such...yay!
P.P.S- Bryan Bestul----I've lost yer cell number! Please CALL ME! Thank you!!! bye everybody----have a good day, and always remember to live life to the fullest!!! Thanx again buds'. Buhbye ya'll.
Current mood:  excited Current music: sting
Saturday, July 9, 2005
Saturday, July 9th, 2005
@ 8:13pm
hey everybody! this is one of Katie's rant/ hippie-do-something entries... get over it. Anyway, guess what!?!?!?!?!?Wal Mart is raising their "pet department budget" by 30 % soon; and it is predicted that if everything goes as planned, w/ their business and all, whatever, both the newly opened Petsmart and Petco will go out of business!!!! Let's not let this happen! Let's not let wal mart win! In related issues/ places, everyone should make a conscious effort to shop more at Kmart, and Hardees if they must! We need to help them from going under too--- not just for that reason; they also have great shtuff! And Let's not let McDonald's drive Hardees outta business either. Maybe I'm cheesy, and/or unrealistic, but hey! Someone's gotta be---and I'm that annoying person. Start getting involved peeps! I mean this in a good way. Okay, I'm done. I was bored. Have fun.I love yas.
ps this is not just one store we're talking about here; this encompasses an entire chain/ corporation!!!
Current mood: hopeless...? Current music: enya-----shut up
Sunday, July 3, 2005
Sunday, July 3rd, 2005
@ 6:48am - blah-i suck
hey hey. no one's probably reading this, but that's okay- whatev. I don't take enuff time to read alot of peoples' lj anymore either----oh wait, i remember now, i don't have time! I'm at pete's house right now, i slept over last nite, cuz we're gettin' ready to go down ta' west bend w/ his fam, and stay at his grandparents' cottage for a couple days... okay, more like one... shut up!! teehee. anywho, look everyone, to those who may be angry for me not calling them lately, i'm sorry, i am really getting around to it---i just wanna make sure i can actually do stuff w/ u b4 i call ya' . okay then, sorry for the short-ish entry. but i gotsta' go. thanx lovers. have a great 4th! buhbye.
Thursday, June 23, 2005
yowsers!!!! itsa officially summer-uh!!!! Tonite morality crisis has battle of the freakin bands at the coral of lanes---and i hope they fuckin rock ass! also, this past weekend, me, sarah, jessi, missy and i all drove downta' milewaukee--- (which is algonquin for, "the good land,") to see "WArped tour", and met up w/ briit, sarah, and jackie!!it fuckin rocked ass...kickass! some of the bands were lame, but for the most paart, we all got kickass tans, and met the lead singer of THe Bled, and did a human pyramid w/ him... yes, that's right... a fuckin human pyramid, yo'! anyway, i'm babbling... oh yeah, idk if i memtioned in my last journal entry or not that i officially switched positions from up front, to the deli. do i need to tell you that the deli rocks ass? okay then. ummmmmmmmmm---oh yeah! i had my grad party this last weekend also, and morality crisi played....yes, they rocked ass, but my neighbors di not rock so much ass. in fact, they got kinda mad-ass. fyckers.i even warned them. idiot fuckers. they're mexican by the way. just kidding, i'm not really mad--who the hell cares? ummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm pete and i have been swimming a lot lately, and it rawks.... (ass). how many times have i said "rocked ass" here? at least thrice. yeah, those asses decided not to show up to warped tour. that's okay though, i got revenge and torched their houses. not really. do you honestly belive that? omg, i'm gay.i love you. all. all is an elite laundry detergent by the way. use it. belive it. do it. i freestyled that. fo real, fucks. i'm done. i suck. but i still love yous' all........ i werk tomorrow... el-sucko.oh yeah!! i'm also a volunteer at family planning now...(rock ass)!!! ---w/ amy snyder...(bonus). also, i'm a yard-work volunteer for "faith in action". i don't care about punctuation... you know why? cuz i rock... and i rock ass. belive it.. ima gonna be putting my faith into action. my atheisy faith. perhaps my pagan faith. i'm just kidding and/or idk what i'm talking about. that's how cool, uh, "rock-ass" i am. yeah. i wish i was black.
Current mood: rock ass(what else?) Current music: converge-jane doe---why not?
Tuesday, June 14, 2005
yoyo! contrary to popular belief, i graduated! just playin...i was like valedictorian or some shit like that... actually, that was a friendly lie again. teehee, you'll get over it*hug. yeah, being at the actual graduation ceremony was all together , a little surreal, though. I was like, "holy fuck, off to college i go---" or something on that order...yeah, shut up. I have college orientation tomorrow, and i'm kinda jumping outta my pants about it!!! yay!!!! what else? oh! kyli moved to texas on monday *tear, and corey moved to minnesota on monday as well, *double tear... it truly is amazing how one starts to lose touch with highschool folk after graduation... really--hell, how do i know? anywho, i called the volunteer center today, and there's kin-of an awesome chance that i could be a dance teacher volunteer this summer, and i'm crapping my pants about that too!
Oh yeah! amy schneider, corey and i hung out the other day, went to the last day of something's brewing, and then to the porn shop, and it was ohh sooo much fun!!! amy, i heart you! by the way, erin knippel, you need to call me!! anywho, i forgot to tell yas, i permanently switched positions at pick n' save, from the front end, to the deli, and it rawks muh' sawks. yalooo! has that werd caught on... YET?!?!?! jp... ummmm, what else can i ramble about? ohh! pick me! my grad' par-tay issssa comin uppa, and there's gonna be live musoc by morality crisis, and all that jazz! also, the day after that, mer and mny gals, (from the band) are goin' to "warped tour" the 19th, which sir peter and I are listening to a compilation cd of, right at this very outstanding moment, yo. indeed. In a realted topic, i'm happy to say that all that was going on between my friends has been virtually resolved, or is "understood", if that makes any sense...? So, oh happy day!!! we need to have band practice soon, gallaz!!!!?!?!! yes, indeed... ummm, what else?!?!? oh yeah! pete's dawg woody gotsa shavin' and is the hottest thing i four legs... oh, by the way... I ABSOLUTELY LOVE YOU PETER LYLE NOTEBOOM! And i don't care if people are gettin sick of readin about it, yay! I only date you for your lakefront property, however---JUST KIDDING! ANYONE who believes that, clearly doesn't know me. Peter, you are indeed the swell-est guy eva. fo' sure. anywho, i don't know what else to talk about...random thought, this warped tour compilation cd we're listening to right now, kinda blows goats, so far, anyway---some bands are alright... but don't worry, the line-up for the tour this year, looks swell.umm, i can't think of anything else to write, so i'll log off for now, suckas, and maybe i'll add more laterz.
peace out biatches. i love yas' all. eeat lots of tofu. Remember to try not to write songs with the chord progression as follows: D, A, b minor, G. this is just a funny side note, from listening to music on the cd we;re listening to right now- it's not a target remark. i heart explaining myself. tsunamis rock too.
Current mood: kickass Current music: Boys Night out
Saturday, May 28, 2005
i don't know anymore... i feel like Pete and I are the couple that everybody hates... nobody has said this, i just get vibes... and the truth is, yes, i did tell him things (to people that this pertains to, you know who you are), BUT this was not without thinking or knowing that he had already got wind of certain things, before i told him--or at least had a strong NOTION that he knew pretty much everything---and if that's what happened, i'm sorry...people make mistakes... i just feel like everybody is making their own conclusions about my actions, without actually knowing what happened, and/or is not confronting me about it--so i don't know what to do... just let me ask you this though, did "our bunch" not sit in a little cluster in the bandroom right before myrtle beach, and talk about "stuff" together? i think we did... i'm not saying that i said anything weird beyond that, i'm just establishing the fact that we all sat as a group and talked about this stuff in the open...and this sends mixed signals...idk.And, about the issue where i "told missy " about stuff--was not just a case where i was like "missy, guess what?' we were talking about a related topic, and something kinda came up, and with the knowledge knowing that she's in our "bunch" i said something, thinking that she knew-- because, well, wouldn't it make sense that i thought that she knew? and idk, i'm sorry, i'll stop making assumptions from now on. i honestly mean that, everything i'm saying here, i'm sincere about, and i'm not saying to be smug or mean-but some things need to be addressed, and if you want 'changes' this is a start to making it happen...i guess that's all i can do is say i'm sorry,though, and that i won't do it again, cuz i can't take it back... i'm not saying this to be "baggy," i just don't want you guys to feel like you can't talk to me, bcuz you think i'll go and tell everybody everything, cuz that's not what i'm out to do... i feel kinda left out now, and now i kinda know how missy feels, and it sucks.i decided to post this whole "ordeal" on my lj, cuz not telling you this wouldn't be very nice, and/or wouldn't change anything... i don't want you guys to feel sorry for me, but, considering my family life, having you guys be mad at me, or not trust me, or whatever, is such an awful feeling. idk, maybe i've spent too much time being in a million different extra curricular activities, and have not really gained anything of "true" value--like the trust of my friends. for real though, maybe it is indirectly my fault...idk, i feel like an awful person, and i don't really know if i really did anything wrong...i probably come off as a pretty sensitive person--idk if that even matters... now i'm just babbling,, maybe i should stop talking before i make everything worse... i'm not trying to do that. i'll just go now- i probably think of something later. for whatever the whole ordeal involves, i'm sorry... i just really enjoy and need you guys as friends. I also apologize if i get defensive... it's just, like i said, what am i supposed to say, when you won't "fully" confront me about the issue(s)... idk, peace...
Current mood: needy and sad Current music: murder by death
Saturday, May 21, 2005
hey folks... I realize i haven't updated in eons... i guess this is partially due to the fact that for i while i was considering the termination of my LJ. It's just, i see how much indirect damage and pain that can be caused through these sorts of things, and it makes me feel bad. And for one last touch on this subject, for those who are unaware, I just want you to know that my last journal entry was not directed at anyone--- not anyone whom i'm friends w/ anyway... it was just an entry in retrospect of a bad day.Ya know how that goes? alrighty then--- no hard feelings. New Topic! I went to the wausau west pop concert last nite, and it was sooo good it practically ripped my face off! When Peter sang "behind Blue Eyes," I wanted to jump him right then and there. I wish our choir director would let us do something like that... She's too closed minded. Last nite, Lydia and I came to the conclusion that, the best thing for the music program, would be to possibly "drop" haines. It would be too sad to see her retire, becuz she has no family-- choir is all she really has-- so I guess we just have to wait for her to die. I mean this in a humorous sense--not in the sense of, " Oh, hey, that would be sweet if Haines got ebola," even though it would in fact be convenient-jklol. Also, we have our choir concert tonite--i hope everyone knows their words... that's all I will say. yuppers.OOOHH! Pick me! Sarah and missy are out of school now, so they're home! *kt jumps up and down w/ uncontrollable excitement*-- so we can start having a shit load of band practices!!! hoo-ah! To add to the excitement- we all also got a ";band" pet! it is a slider turtle, who's full name is: Angus "The House of Pain" Turtle-pants!!! How coolio is that?? I know! Digressing(which I do about every .5 seconds) Brittany also got her tonsils out yesterday... I hope you're doin' okay bud! I'ma gonna coma see-a you today! yup yup. hmm.. what else? oh yeah, Caitlin Puckett and myself tried out to be graduation speakers together, and it was like one of the funniest speeches we've ever done--and the student council representatives, including many teachers, enjoyed it to the max. Sadly, however, Dr. J did not, so we are not speakign at the grad thingy. *bummer* ...BUTTTTT!!!! student council came and talked to me the other day, and they want Caitlin and I to do it at the after-grad party!!! So most definitely, we are going to!! yeeeeeehawwwwwwww! And and and! wait! there'es more! Caitling and i also put together a short speech and musical skit for the 2005 MAD awards( music, art and drama), which included MaDonna's "Like A Prayer," (which would rip your face off) and our fine arts coordinator Mr. Phalen loves the idea---but haines doesn't... go figure... So she'll be at our mini audition on monday as well... cross your fingers for us guys!!! god, she's old. forget her. anyway, speaking of musicals, my friend Abrielle Krumrie wrote a musical!! yes, that's right, WROTE a musical--and directed it! it was put on over at east highskool, and i didn't know anyhing about it... i was very sad... but she gave me the soundtrack, and for the most part, is impressive.how cool is that? doesn't that make you want to do something, or erect something slightly massive? yeah it does. don't act like it doesn't---g-units. ah yes, and to conclude my extensive enjambment and stream of conscious journal entry, we in fact hadda percusion concert--and it was ganrlio! Antigo drumline came too, and they were fucking awesome. Carmyn and sara, in our drumline also went through all this trouble to decorate the auditorium all african, and cool-style, and it turned out really superb. Top notch, my friends! I salute you, and your decorating abilities!! lastly, i've been taking vitamins to help my hair grow longer, and all it does is make my armpit hair really fsat-growing and sasquatch-y. El-sucko, huh? ok, enuff for today, i loves yas' all, and i'll see yas'laterz. Peace out, bitches.
Current mood: saucy Current music: the refused
Sunday, April 24, 2005
Hey yallllllllllll. that's right, ya'll with like 27 l's. what can i say? life is good right now. i went to pete's prom w/ him last nite, and it rawked muh sawks. the decs' were kinda goth , yet fun inspired....hmmm yes. our lil' gang was down right fuckin fun!
I t was nice too see the les missers' again! we ate at chang garden rightm and we ordered the poo poo platter, and we got this big fucking lazy assed susan of foods, w/ it's own lil mini-oven/griddle. fuck yes. dance comps' rocked, oh yeah, amanda and i also got a perfect score at state forensics! eat it! yes, life is fun, except for you downers who keep complaining about eerything..."Aw, my life sucks, i don't have a pony and some shit... woes me, i'm a poor middle classed american child." suck on it. grow up, and get lives, and maybe boyfriends. stop making up lies, and exaggerating about shit no one cares about. YAY!! i said my piece.... i usually like to think of myself as a generally nice person, but there's just a few peeps who bring out the werst in me--like, yeah, nevermind, livejournal should not be a forum for people just to come and bitch at. life is good people! get off yer asses. Here's a list of good things:
1. if yer reading this, obviously, your liver hasn't failed yet, *bonus. 2. the grass is green-ish now, and its' kinda nice out. 3. woody is still alive! yay! 4. our band is gonna have a show soon!(me and my girls rock!!!i love yas)5. i have all ten toes, yadda yadda. alright, i gotta go do some shtuff, so i'll talk to yas' laterz.. buhbye my loves! keep smiling. keep getting regular colonics to prevent certain forms of cancer! hoo-ah! peace out biatches.
Current mood: frazzled Current music: Darkest Hour
Sunday, April 3, 2005
Sunday, April 3rd, 2005
@ 12:06pm - yaloo!
yaloo!(is that werd catching on yet?)hmm, anyway, i woke up early to read hamlet for Ap. lit today---it's not too bad, but as i get further into it, it gets even more boring--whatev. trying to check out that book at the library was hell yesterday! i was using my bro's card right, and they're like"kyle?(questioningly?" and i was like," problem?" and i hadta talk the bastards into lettin me check out a god damn book...fuckers(lol). yeah, so i'm tryin to get all my werk done early cuz PETER COMES HOME TODAY!!!!!!!!!yaloo1 i'm so excited to see him, i'm shitting my pants! iwant to know everything about everything pertaining to his trip when he returns!umm, oh yeah--i took my placement tests for college yesterday--they kinda blew goats. the english wasn't bad--a few tricky questions-but it's to be expected. the mathn part, however, was majorly sub-par. gawd i hate numbers!what else happened yesterday? oh yeah, my parents went fishing, ice -fishng--in this nice weather(how polish, right?),and my mom fell through the ice!! can you beleive that!?!? she's okay though.so yaloo!then, oh yes, jessi and i decided to high-tail it to point to go biking on some trails, and see missy, and we took all this time preparing our bikes, and when we finally got there--we realized my bike only had one pedal!!1 i was like," Are you frickin kidding me?!?!" so then we went hiking instead, and skateboaridng(which died fast), and then we met up w/ missy --uber fun times! later, we called up our usual troops, and we realized it was high roller skating rink's last "all niter"--so we hauled ass ove there, and went roller skating!! it was me, jess, bert, chris, kasey, jordan, and some lil' kid stalkers.. we rocked at the limbo, and skated the wrong way--choice. the pees also played some of our cds, so hell yes!! after that, we all piled into jordans wagon' like sardines, and went driving, and played padiddle--which involves stripping. everytime one sees a car w/ a headlite out, you hit the ceiling and yell"paddiddle", and the opposite team has to discard an item of clothing.. needless to say the gals won, and kasey and chris were sitting in the nude--i sat up front by jordan, who was driving, and he was just in his boxers--it lent itself to a bit of an awkward moment--but it was funnay. especially w/ jordan screaming and such. needless to say, it was an eventful day. i also visited my grandma! and yes, i did do one constructive thing, i applied at pick n' save two days ago, so ill check on that today. well, i wrote a shit-ton, and i sill have a lot of werk to do, and i gotta exercise, so i'll see yas later! buhbye now, luvs!
Current mood: a tad overwhelmed(my fault) Current music: regina spektor, "contagious?"
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